Meditation, in all its various colors, has hit the mainstream. It used to be just the hippies and alternative people who flocked to a room somewhere back in the 60s and 70s to learn transcendental meditation. I was one of them. My friend was one of the “alternatives” and invited me to a session that he was attending. Sounded interesting. I was given a mantra and taught how to relax my mind and silently repeat that mantra over and over again. When my mind wandered, gently bring it back to that nonsensical word and continue to silently and effortless repeat it. We were taught to practice that for 20 minutes twice a day. I did, and have been for years. Now it’s 30 minutes once a day about 5 times a week. During my college years I lapsed and had intermittent on/off periods during my high driving career years. But for a number of years now it’s been a regular practice, not “TM” but rather insight meditation has taken its place. That practice has made a major impact on my patience level, sense of peace and contentedness, clarity of thought and abiding sense of internal joy. Medical research now proves the physical and mental benefits of an ongoing meditation and mindfulness practice. Dozens of articles have been written about it and books extolling its benefits include its step-by-step process. But few have the emotional impact and first person case study that prominent neurosurgeon Dr. James R. Doty’s has in his memoir Into The Magic Shop: A Neurosurgeon’s Quest to Discover the Mysteries of the Brain and the Secrets of the Heart. Wow is the superlative that comes to mind.
Dr. Doty is now a professor of Neurosurgery at Stanford University. But, as he tells it, it’s a fluke that he actually attended college at all, not to mention become a successful and prominent neurosurgeon. He doesn’t use the word fluke he calls it magic and weaves a compelling tale of being a young boy and meeting a woman in a magic shop who seduced him by promising the ultimate magic trick that would change his life. He was to spend his 12 weeks of summer vacation with her learning the trick. And if he practiced the trick, even at home, he could have anything he wants in life. That would be truly amazing since he came from a very poor family with a drunken father who couldn’t keep a job and bedridden, clinically depressed mother who had to continually pack up the family and move when they got evicted from apartment after apartment for not paying the rent.
The trick, as Dr. Doty relays, was learning to meditate and then manifest his dreams. With regular practice and a deep, sincere desire for those goals to materialize along with visualization and the trust that they would – his life could change. Would change. This book tells that story of how his dreams came to pass. Along the way he shares the step-by-step process that this woman, Ruth, taught him. His abiding hope is that others will learn the way too.
It’s a profound read that is hard to put down.
Letting Go
Posted in health, meditation, musings, Uncategorized, tagged commentary, Enneagram, Health, meditation, observation on November 6, 2012| 1 Comment »
It’s a good thing I voted early, otherwise I’d be hobbling into the polling station with a very stiff and cranky lower back. It’s much wiser and safer to be nursing it with some ibuprofen and a heating pad with hopes that it feels better tomorrow.
No barn duty today either although it’s my morning to help with the horses at the Rescue. Tuesdays come quickly and they’re usually greeted with a healthy back and ambitious attitude to feed, turn out and clean stalls. That’s actually what may have aggravated my back last week during some pretty heavy lifting in some very dirty stalls.
My back has been in great shape for years, thanks to regular exercise and yoga. But with the cooler weather here and maybe a case of nerves leading up to the election, my back has decided to take control out of my hands and leave it up to fate.
Our bodies have a way of letting us know when it’s time to let go. To let go of controlling things over which we have no control.
Being a Type A personality, (actually, I like to call myself a recovering Type A), I’ve always needed to control my destiny. My career put me in constant touch with news and pop culture and my leadership roles allowed me to be the gatekeeper I needed to be. I had influence over content, budgets, direction, staffs and the masses.
Perfect.
As my bank account grew with my advancements, so did my sense of personal freedom. Money has always meant freedom to me, rather than the acquisition of “stuff,” though I accrued that too. And with that freedom came a sense of control over my destiny. Oops, there’s that word control again.
If you think my childhood had anything to do with that, you’d be right. But that’s another subject. (Or, if you know anything about the Enneagram model, and my type number, you might also realize control issues are in line with that too.)
Anyway, I digress. Back to control…
These days the issue of control is one that I’m working to live without. I’ve consciously started to live my life without assuming leadership functions. Passion may describe a defining personal attribute, but that doesn’t have to lead to controlling an outcome. A Buddhist tenet is to do what you must and let go of the outcome. To not be so attached to the activity and its motivation, but, rather to do what’s right and give the rest up to the wind. What will be, will be. I’ve done my part, now let it go.
That’s what I think my back has been telling me for a few days now. I’ve voted, I’ve been an activist for principles that guide me. Now, just relax and let it be what it will be.
Thank you, back.
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